Monday, January 18, 2010

Confession Time

Forgive me reader, for I have sinned.

I have lied to you.

In the way that an omission is also a lie.

I am not still working in the front room of that amazing hospital that is a beacon of light in a sea of poverty and despair.

My compulsory government service came to and end on the last day of December 2009.

I'm currently unemployed. ( Oh the shame!)

And for the first time since I was 6 there is no plan for my future.

This is how my life plan until this moment went:

1:School BANG!
2:Medical School BAM!
3:Internship BOOM!
4:Community Service KEPOW!

And now........?

Well now I have the peculiar feeling that I've been cruelly severed from the umbilical cord of institutional protection.
Like I've been ripped away from my comfort zone of striving together through shit situations with a team towards a common goal.
Or like my family has disowned me or something similarly nonsensical.

I miss my colleagues.

I miss the patients.

And I feel kind of...lonely?!?!

Take charge of my own destiny, you say?

Not sure if I know how, think you can help me with that? ( ho hum)

Three weeks of holiday later and I'm uttery dumbfounded as to what to do with my day.

I find myself praying that someone will collapse in a shopping centre and need resuscitation. (this has actually happened to me before, but that's a story for another post)

Or that I'll come across an accident scene with a patient in need of some kind of trauma assistance.

But it's not all doom and gloom...I have some things in the pipeline...


*A possible post in Infectious Diseases as a medical officer at the end of Feb.(pending results of an intense interview that felt more like my final medical oral exam)

*A GP locum job seeing private patients with minor illnesses starting on Thursday.(This might prove mind-numbing after the madness of 2009)

*Joining MSF and going to work in some war-torn part of the world.

*Becoming a stripper.

Oh, this doesn't mean the posts will disappear...on the contrary! Now that I have all this free time on my hands, I might delve into all sorts of introspection and subject you to unending mundane musings about the most banal trivialities of my life...

Or I might remember the hundreds of mad medicine stories I didn't post purely because there wasn't enough time.

We'll see...

It's all up in the air right now...


deluded said...

hey S

youve got to knowwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

we love you as long as youre you!
and you like ketchup.

you DO like ketchup no?

if you become a stripper, can we have photos?
*gets smacked by her husband

oh, well, just wondering.....

whats the latest news?

deluded said...

oh. and.

youre hot!

Stupidosaur said...

Too much blog vacation is not good!
(for us)
Come back!
We forgive your omission! Actually no question of forgiving! We never held it against you for even a moment! Really!

Have you started the GP locum job?
Or waiting for the Feb end results?
Tell us! Something!

Actually you can become a stripper - by starting a medical comic strip ;). Like xkcd maybe.

Or tell us about that shopping centre resuscitation! Or triavial banalities. Anything!

(Its not like I am just making lots of noise coming out of the blue. I do read the blog, but don't necessarily comment!)

Dr S. said...

Ah guys...I feel all warm and fuzzy inside, and well-loved...I have fans!!Yippeee! They love me, they really love me!

Glad you've forgiven me...

So Deluded,yes, I DO like ketchup. Except, I call it tomato sauce. So, actually no, I don't like ketchup, I like tomato sauce.

You may have the stripper photos - but they are incredibly expensive and do not get disseminated for free.

Stupidosaur: I must say I've missed your entertaining commentary: A request for banal trivialities - or the shopping mall resus story? Oh yes...I feel those creative fires being stoked...perhaps I'll indulge...and dedicate that one to you?


Ketan said...

I too am waiting! :)


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