Monday, January 18, 2010
Forgive me reader, for I have sinned.
I have lied to you.
In the way that an omission is also a lie.
I am not still working in the front room of that amazing hospital that is a beacon of light in a sea of poverty and despair.
My compulsory government service came to and end on the last day of December 2009.
I'm currently unemployed. ( Oh the shame!)
And for the first time since I was 6 there is no plan for my future.
This is how my life plan until this moment went:
2:Medical School BAM!
4:Community Service KEPOW!
Well now I have the peculiar feeling that I've been cruelly severed from the umbilical cord of institutional protection.
Like I've been ripped away from my comfort zone of striving together through shit situations with a team towards a common goal.
Or like my family has disowned me or something similarly nonsensical.
I miss my colleagues.
I miss the patients.
And I feel kind of...lonely?!?!
Take charge of my own destiny, you say?
Not sure if I know how, think you can help me with that? ( ho hum)
Three weeks of holiday later and I'm uttery dumbfounded as to what to do with my day.
I find myself praying that someone will collapse in a shopping centre and need resuscitation. (this has actually happened to me before, but that's a story for another post)
Or that I'll come across an accident scene with a patient in need of some kind of trauma assistance.
But it's not all doom and gloom...I have some things in the pipeline...
*A possible post in Infectious Diseases as a medical officer at the end of Feb.(pending results of an intense interview that felt more like my final medical oral exam)
*A GP locum job seeing private patients with minor illnesses starting on Thursday.(This might prove mind-numbing after the madness of 2009)
*Joining MSF and going to work in some war-torn part of the world.
*Becoming a stripper.
Oh, this doesn't mean the posts will disappear...on the contrary! Now that I have all this free time on my hands, I might delve into all sorts of introspection and subject you to unending mundane musings about the most banal trivialities of my life...
Or I might remember the hundreds of mad medicine stories I didn't post purely because there wasn't enough time.
It's all up in the air right now...